Midnight Crisis

Sometimes I do feel like letting out. Now is that time. I do want to cry but I can't. Maybe because I want to hold back. Maybe because it's not gonna be worth it. Or maybe there is no reason at all. I pride myself as a happy man but sometimes life can be hard on you. You strive for things that are very elusive but you still try. Yet you fail. That failure sometimes chips away our morale one piece at a time. Sometimes I feel that that failure pushed me further than the victory would have done. But now, everything is a mess. I am a mess. Not knowing what to think, how to act, how to continue living. I know I want to live but how to live it, that is the real question. I love my adventurous side, the one who doesn't give a damn to what anyone would say but as time goes by, opinions comes very high on our lists. It becomes so high that sometimes we forget what we really are for. We just know what the world wants from us and we forget what we really want. We fight it everyday, and every day we lose.