Clingy.

Super labo ng post na to. Don't read. It's not organized or whatever.



Why am I clingy? It brought me to a verrrrry new situation. It brought me into a situation I never want to be in. But why am I still clingy? Here are my thoughts:

I think I am clingy because I want to feel loved. Physical display of affections always works on me. I lean on people's shoulders, I cry on them, I hug a lot. I hold people's hands. Even intertwined my fingers with theirs. Just to feel loved. I also kiss people. :D HOHO. On rare occasions. Hay.

Now that the rain has separated me from the people I usually hug/hold hands with/kiss are far from me. I feel not loved. Then I become the texter/fb-er/twitter-er/blogger. Hayyy. That is why I am sad. I am lonely. I want to feel loved. :( And now, I feel like I am alone. HAHAHA

Maybe I am like this because I am used to be hugged/kissed/clingy-ed by everyone. Or maybe I just want to feel like it. But I am clingy. 



I just created this post because I have no one to talk to the whole day today. I just want to let it out. I want to tell the world to that I want to be hugged. That is why I hug people. I want them to feel loved. But seldom I get hugs. I know that they are not clingy like me, that is why I understand. I just want people to hug me. :((((((((

Repost. Gusto mo ng Realizations?

Hindi mo palagi nakukuha ang gusto mo. Pero hindi mo kailangan maging malungkot dahil hindi mo nakukuha ang gusto mo. Nasa iyo naman kung gusto mo maging masaya eh. Hindi lang naman ang gusto mo ang magpapasaya sa iyo. Minsan, nakakalimutan lang natin ang mga simpleng bagay na nagpapaligaya sa atin. Kapag na wala na lang sila, saka natin nakikita kung gaano kaimportante ang mga iyon sa buhay natin. Huwag gaanong pagtuunan ng pansin ang mga problema. Masasagot din sila, maghintay ka lang. At ang mga hindi mo makuha? Naging masaya ka naman nang wala ang mga iyon, hindi ba? Pwes, kaya mo ring maging masaya ulit kahit na wala ang mga iyon.


At ang mga kaibigan, importante ang mga iyan. Huwag mo silang talikuran o pagisipan ng masama. Kung may ginawa man silang hindi mo ikinatuwa, hindi naman nila siguro intensyon na saktan ka. Kung ganoon nga ang intensyon nila, hindi mo talaga sila dapat na ituring na kaibigan. Kung pinagiisipan mo naman sila ng masama, anong klaseng kaibigan ka? Hindi mo sila pinagkakatiwalaan pero sila pinagkakatiwalaan ka? Masama kang kaibigan kung ganoon.


At ang pinaka importante siguro ay kaya mong gawin ang lahat. Nasa sa iyo lang kung gagawin mo o hindi. Ikaw ang bahala sa buhay mo. Tandaan mo lang din na "It is our choices, not our traits, that make us who we are.". Kaya ang payo ko sayo, huwag kang matakot. What does not kill us, makes us stronger. After all, we learn from our mistakes. Kapag palagi tayong nagkakamali, marami tayong matututunan at magagamit natin iyon sa ibang bagay. Experience is the best teacher. At kung masakit man ang iyong pagkakamali, huwag kang mawawalan ng pag-asa. Dahil kapag wala nang pagasa, hindi natin alam kung may bagyo.
NGEEE!!!!!
Ang korny ko. Mamatay na lahat ng korny.

Believe.

One thing I pride myself is that I believe. I believe in people. Not everyone, of course. But yes. Anyway, I believe that people can reach anything. I don't know. Just put effort into it and I believe you can reach it. Maybe I am influenced by my friend, but I saw it work one time. From that time, I believed we are capable of doing things. We are capable of achieving higher goals. It just that we don't put ENOUGH effort into it.


Anyway, this is the event that I think was one of the turning points in my life.


It was the last quarter of my last high school. I was flunking in Math. I know that I can flunk one of the subjects because I can still graduate with that grade. But I wanted to graduate without failing grades. It is just what I like. I am not used to flunk subjects even though I hate them. So, my teacher gave us our pre-final grade, I was 5.0 or 4.0, I can't remember. I needed 6 points to get a 3.00, but 3.00 is not passing in our grading system. I need to get 2.50. And when I look if how much points in the last periodic exam I need to get, I was shocked. I believed back then that it was impossible. But then, I knew I don't want to graduate with failing grades. I knew I have to get that 2.50. No matter how impossible it may seem. So the night before the exam, I reviewed. I only reviewed Math (We have exams on 2 other subjects that same day). I solved and re-solved all the long exams that we had. I had facebook on my side but it was "touched" for a couple of times. I slept early that night. I rested. Then the next day happened. Then that afternoon, the results were out. I did it. It was something. I was happy. From then on, I knew I can do it. I still know I can. I believe. And I believe in others, too.






*This is maybe how I get that high self-esteem,*

Panic.

I hate making sad posts. I don't know if this one's gonna be sad.

Anyway, I love how people trust me. I don't know. I felt like I am needed. Maybe I just want to feel needed. Or I need to feel needed. If that is the case, it is sad. I am not like this before. Before, I don't give a shit about what people think about me. I don't give a shit about what they think about at all. But now, things have changed. I think before I do something. Before I say something. Before anything. And sometimes, I feel like I am ran by the opinions of other people. I always say, damn the norms of the society. But I am a hypocrite. I give a damn about those norms. I live by their rules. I live by how they want me to live. And I am sad to realize this. I am sad because somehow, I don't have freedom. I am chained and contained in a box called society. And I don't know how to get out. I need to get out. Or not. Maybe I like to be contained. Maybe I like how comfy it is to be in here. Or maybe I am the one who chained and locked myself in here. Life is full of choices. These choices define our life. These choices makes us who we are. These define us.

Oh well. Life is unfair. It will never be fair. So we have to conform to life and get the best out of it.